Unforgettable Bus Boy

My secondary Form 5 life has been so tough because I took a lot of times to go home by bus and stayed in Jusco for 4 hours.

When I was Form 5, waiting bus in Kajang, I was always stand beside him, solely because I feel secured standing beside a tall guy. When bus reached, we moved into the bus together and stand in the same position everyday.We had this routine everyday after school dismiss, but we didn't talked to each other. Even a "hi" or "how are you". We don't know each other's name or details.

And one day, I saw his book cover, and realise that he was just 15, two years smaller than me. But he is tall, I feel safe standing with him.

After SPM, I'm gone, and I got myself a driving licence and I didn't took bus anymore. I didn't met him for around 10 months.

Today, I'm 18 and he's 16, I'm driving home and passed by Batu 11, where the bus stops everyday. I saw a familiar uniform, with the same height, same shoes guy walked out from the bus.

How fantastic, I saw him.
And I realized, I'm kinda miss him.

I will always remember those rainy days, we walked out from the bus bravely without a single umbrella.
Every single moment I spent with you, I feel secured.  =D Thank you.

Braces

Actually, I was so happy yesterday as I can't feel any pain after the instalment of braces.

But I'M WRONG!!!

I can't bite anything at night and even I don't talk, I don't smile, I don't do anything to my teeth, I can feel the pain. I can feel that my front teeth are going to drop out when I bite a bread. =.= How can I survive the whole 2 years.

Now, I have the urge to slap someone else, BECAUSE IT IS SO PAINFUL!!!

First day Braces...

To Braces:

Welcome to my little world. You made me mad today because I can feel the "stress" you give to my teeth. But I'm crossing finger hoping I won't lose weight because of you. I gained my weight hard and please don't destroy my super-duper-weigh-gaining-plan.

To Food:

I love you so much but it's too hard to bite you. My teeth hurt. Thanks to your enemy--- braces.

To Myself:

I'm going to have a pretty and confident smile .... urgh... maybe... after 1 year...

Tuesday Thoughts

Seriously, I wish that I have a good dad to buy me everything I wanted. Just he pays and I enjoy the rest of it. Sometimes I become kinda emotional when I saw my friends get what from their dad, even most of them don't work and just get money from their parents. If you are one of the person I just mentioned above, YOU ARE LUCKY. You must be grateful for having great parents.

Usually when others talked about family, I would just walk away and avoiding any question about my family. 

I only shared my story with close friends, which means who really know me. Because, sometimes it's stress and sad while coping with study, working, and take care of my siblings, and quarrel between families. And what I can say about my family, it's VERY complicated. 

Every new friend I met before said that I'm perfect. I'm good in academic, I'm can play piano well, I can maintain good result while working, I'm a superwoman. How can you say that... You just can't judge a book just by it's cover. I want a good life as many of you too, I desperately hope I can just focus in study and don't have to work a lot of part times. I want to order every food I love without considering whether can I afford my monthly spending. If I have a good family, a good father, I don't have to live my life like this.

There's always another story behind a story. 

I have to do, not because I want to, it's because I MUST DO IT to survive. 

Simple Happiness

Firstly, I can't believe that I survived through the 1st semester of UTAR foundation!
How amazing is it for having 1 week holiday after 3 months of non-stop small test, big test, replacement test and final test! IT'S FANTASTIC!!! even it's only 1 week. It's a luxury for UTAR foundation students.

Secondly, I have no idea why am I sooooooooooo happy these days, I just can't stop smiling all-day long.
Even my mum and my family thought that I had fall in love with someone.
No, I'm just happy for no reason. =D

Watching kids made me happy for the whole Saturday.
How to say that, I'm kinda love kids and kinda hate kids in the same time.
I love watching kids playing happily together, and I enjoy playing with them.
I hate kids crying non-stop, this made wanna slap them when I gone mad.

Whatever, I'm happy, and I hope you all have a great day. =D

Just let me survive this week

Praying hard this week will end up faster.  So, exam will not that suffer.
I just need to survive above GPA 3.9 PLEASE.

After exam, I'm planning to:

• Go get a bracelet
• Find job, earn money
• Buy myself a mask : ) 
• Don't touch anything related to academic matters. 
• Play a new piano song. Probably: summer by joe hishashi, or the First Love, or both : ) 

Hope you guys have a great week. 

Good luck.